Breastfeeding

Never easy as it seems to be. A week ago, my milk supply as a plenty! Leaking. I had to change my shirts frequently because I have never been a fan of nursing pads. But then when I got sick with whatever infection it was, high fever, cough, and colds it went kaput! I almost cried when I tried to pump some to see I had only a few drops.

Now, I am in this dilemma. Do I really want to pursue increasing my supply or just forget about it? There is nothing wrong with the formula I guess. Although the guilt is there... am I trying hard enough? Am I doing the right thing? On the other hand, not nursing 24/7 gives me the energy and speeds up my recovery (I think). Ayayay!

I think I will just have to settle with feeding my baby both my breastmilk and formula. Never mind that I only give him a third of what he needs every feeding. Doesn't really make me a bad mother noh?