Week 10

My nausea comes and goes... I've been lucky not to have "that" kind of morning sickness. However, this nausea that makes me sick to my stomach prevents me from enjoying food. It feels like I'm eating paper, rock, sand, and whatnot. It's hard to figure out what I can eat. To tell you frankly, I would really enjoy living in Cebu right now. So I can have dinuguan, bbq, lechon kawali, buwad, manggang hilaw, etc. Ah the taste and comfort of home... and living like a princess would really help me too since I've been lazy, too lazy to do anything. I can't even bring myself to blog, but I think I owe it to my third child...

In two weeks, I will have my routine check. I wonder how much weight I've gained with all these crap I've been eating.

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On the other hand, I now drive my big boy to school. I feel like a dwarf in a van! (As if I don't look like a dwarf at all, van or not). Oh, it feels surreal -- like an out of body experience every time I'm behind the wheel. Maybe another person takes over me so I get that courage to maneuver a vehicle.

My little boy is now 6 months old. He can be very sweet and can be very temperamental too! Makes me wonder where he got that from?! He is one prince in the house. How I wish I have the energy to indulge him.

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Life has been pretty much surviving the daily ordeal of waking up, preparing the boys, feeding them, and such. I try to clean up and do chores whenever I can. Most of the time, I get down to it at odd hours just because I just couldn't sit on my ass looking at how awful our house has become! The laundry, well you know is always my struggle. I don't think it's wise for me to fight this battle in this delicate stage of my pregnancy. Whatever works I say! (Ukay your own clothes! Puera gaba!)

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Did I tell you how lucky I am in this side of town? My kumare, Miro's ninang, who lives perhaps three minute drive away from us gives me food! Yes, she loves cooking Filipino dishes and offered to make me stuff I fancy. Should I just milk it? LOL! I can drop my boys at her place too and her daughter comes once in awhile to help me babysit and sometimes clean the house. It's already a load off my back. (She threw a birthday dinner for Mark! Hehehe! I think she knows nothing will happen in my kitchen these days!)

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I hope in the next weeks my life will be eventful, colorful, and happy... sadly, I can't see rainbows as of now.

My Charm

Baby Dot @ 8 weeks, due April 16, 2011

Hopefully what they say is true -- third time's a charm! Maybe she is the little flower we've been waiting for! Baby "dot" is now almost ten weeks, in the picture she was only eight weeks and thriving!!! Such a happy news after what I've been through since I knew I was pregnant with her.

I learned about my pregnancy more than a month ago. I was ambivalent, scared, worried, then became indifferent. I feel really guilty for this dot growing inside of me... and I feel guilty for Miro who is still six months old now. He won't be a little baby for a long time... Oh, I can't even describe how messy my mind was when I was cramping a lot. I thought I may lose the baby and that scared me a lot! I cried and bawled and had anxiety attacks... after several blood tests and ultrasound she is thriving! Thank God!

And now to my daily grind, oh well... it's a challenge! First trimester woes -- nausea and exhaustion -- seems like a hurdle because I have my boys to take care of and myself now (most importantly). Sometimes, I forget I'm pregnant. (So soon!) I drag myself out of bed to feed Miro first thing in the morning and prepare Akio for school... almost always forgetting to feed myself some breakfast.

Hopefully I'd get better with juggling everything! Help me pray... that I will have the grace to carry out my duties lovingly... and the strength to endure this blessing =D