My Charm

Baby Dot @ 8 weeks, due April 16, 2011

Hopefully what they say is true -- third time's a charm! Maybe she is the little flower we've been waiting for! Baby "dot" is now almost ten weeks, in the picture she was only eight weeks and thriving!!! Such a happy news after what I've been through since I knew I was pregnant with her.

I learned about my pregnancy more than a month ago. I was ambivalent, scared, worried, then became indifferent. I feel really guilty for this dot growing inside of me... and I feel guilty for Miro who is still six months old now. He won't be a little baby for a long time... Oh, I can't even describe how messy my mind was when I was cramping a lot. I thought I may lose the baby and that scared me a lot! I cried and bawled and had anxiety attacks... after several blood tests and ultrasound she is thriving! Thank God!

And now to my daily grind, oh well... it's a challenge! First trimester woes -- nausea and exhaustion -- seems like a hurdle because I have my boys to take care of and myself now (most importantly). Sometimes, I forget I'm pregnant. (So soon!) I drag myself out of bed to feed Miro first thing in the morning and prepare Akio for school... almost always forgetting to feed myself some breakfast.

Hopefully I'd get better with juggling everything! Help me pray... that I will have the grace to carry out my duties lovingly... and the strength to endure this blessing =D